The internal wrestle no one seems to talk about!

It all starts with an excitement to do something new, a thought, and an idea which in turn leads to a dream. So many ideas rushing through your mind, and the excitement, man the rush of the excitement. “I can do this”, takes centre stage and all logic fades to the back while hope and joyful bliss push the imagination to dream big and see all sorts of fabulous outcomes.

So, you allow this euphoria to carry you as you plan and jot down your ideas. Success is imminent it will work; you are going to be famous and it will spread like wild fire. Then you will be doing life, your way! Yes, everyday doing the thing you love, your passion springs to life and the adventure begins…

The searching and learning are all so exciting as it all contributes to working towards your end goal naturally. “This is all going to be worth it in the end”, the thought that keeps you motivated as you push through the hordes of information. Not to mention the trying to wrap your mind around all that your poor brain is absorbing.

Then in the middle of this whirlwind seeps through the first drop of doubt. What if it doesn’t work? But you choose to overlook that and keep pushing through as, it will work. It has to work. It is going to work!

You just keep on keeping on…

You diligently press on, doing every step, well every step you think must be done. Fighting your way through the hard work of putting into practice the ideas and learning how to bring it all together, whatever that may entail. And yes, you get tired along the way, but this is your dream and you just have to persevere. Encouragement from a few along the way motivates and nudges you on.

Being wrapped up in all this process and implementation, one can easily feel like a roller-coaster ride of note has been taken. But yes, finally a point draws near where an end is in sight.

The wrestle begins…

As you take a breath, step back and pause, reality now comes storming in. Demanding to be heard, the internal wrestle begins.

Do you really think this is good enough?

Is it going to work?

What will people think?

Bravely we walk around in a tainted mask, a smile and a “yes, I’m so excited” but are you?  Or has the internal debate withdrawn a bit from that initial confidence? Does the world get to see the fear? Or do you just hold it all in and fake it till you make it? Not to mention the dreaded questions. Why are you doing this? Or, what’s it’s all about? And of cause the “maybe you should do it this way”

The wrestle continues,

Oh man then the wrestle really gains momentum. In a bid to try and answer all the internal questions more research is done. However, to be honest there are soo many “how to” and “the best way to do… is…” Oh and don’t forget, “the sure way to success is…”  And in not wanting to give up, you try to include a little of each of the advice out there, because after all they are successful right?

Yet I find myself asking, in following their advice, do I not lose some of my originality?

Not to forget you need to determine the target audience, your niche. Ok wait, but how do I put my thoughts and life story into a target box?

Don’t get me wrong, I do agree that not everyone will like what I write or may not even want to read what I think. But hold on, are we people who try and fit ourselves into little boxes that society dictates? Afraid to step out of line, or the proven way, in case someone does not approve, but wait, who is that someone? What if they judge? Is our worth based on the yes or tick of approval?  Or could we dare to take a risk?

The realness of fear.

How many times do we stand gripped in fear, our feelings and doubts holding us back, as if we are standing on a cliff’s edge? Paralyzed by the ‘what if’ of failure or disapproval. The sheer drop of rejection or the intimidating broken faith in uncertainty. Due to this wrestle, often our dreams are sadly never given the chance to soar, to take flight into the wonder and adventure of the unknown sky. Instead, after all the hard work and not giving up, we silently retreat. Tuck our dreams into the abyss of ‘maybe next time’ and in cautious safety we pack it all away.

But what if we just jump? Put it all out there and let the dream find its wings?

In a mixture of excitement, uncertainty, wonder, fear and hope, I have decided to put it out there and see how it can grow. I mean honestly, what do I have to lose?

Agreeably my ego and poor little heart, could take a bashing by the opinions of others, that’s the risk, but at least I did it! I dared to believe in a dream.

In Closing,

My question to you is this, will you allow your internal wrestle the power to cunningly keep your dream from soaring? Or are you going to be courageous enough to dare to dream?

My wish for you, please press play 😉